Pardon me, I am going to mope tonight.
Feeling this way is really out of character for me. I am generally a happy person, and I am happy about who I am... but right now, I am totally and completely doubting my game... and since Jiujitsu is such a major portion of my life, it is throwing me completely out of whack.
I love Jiujitsu. Love it. Hands down, no questions asked one of my favorite things, ever.
But lately, I have been completely and totally doubting my game. I feel off every single time I grapple... like I am doing everything wrong, or doing the wrong things. I used to leave class feeling great, not so much about the way I grappled, but because I grappled. Now I leave class almost sad.
It's not like I feel like I am sucking or that I am getting dominated. I just feel ... off.
I wish I could put my finger on what it is exactly that is putting me in this funk, and get over it.
I want to go back to feeling good after class.... even if I got tapped 20 times every grapple, I would leave class happy. That feeling is the reason I fell in love with Jiujitsu, and I miss it.