I posted earlier this month about feeling off... It has gotten better since then, but today was probably the worst class I've had in a long time.... possibly ever. I was on the verge of tears at the end of class. Normally, on my bad days I just feel like I hadn't grappled the way I know I should have... but today I just felt flat out dominated all day. People who I should be able to control were ALL OVER ME. I know I was trying to work this triangle thing from inside someone's side control, and to work that, I pretty much have to let someone pass into side control, but once people got there, I couldn't close the triangle, I couldn't escape... I couldn't do anything. I sat in someone's side control almost every grapple. It was beyond frustrating!
For some reason, I have latched onto this triangle, and I want to work it into my game SO badly. If someone gets me into their side control I can almost always get the triangle, I land it at least once or twice every class, but I can never close it. I've asked Ben about it probably two or three times now, and today after class I think I may have found what I am doing wrong.... so I am going to try to work with it on Monday too.... but this time I am not going to give up side control to try it... I will just try it if I get there. I can't take another night of being locked up in side control.
I will get this stupid triangle down. I know the triangle is close-able. When Ben was showing me somethings about it after class he closed it so super tight it made me do that gaggy thing... Granted, he is a big brown belt guy, but I should be able to do it too if I can get the technique right.
It is now to the point that I have to learn how to close it for my own sanity. It is driving me crazy!
The one good thing about having had such a bad day is now I am SO fired up for Monday night. I want to make up for my epic failure on the mat today.... but sadly my biggest gap between classes is Saturday morning to Monday night.