Everyone from my school going to the Pan Ams is leaving today or tomorrow. Good luck guys!
Anyway, when we were talking about it someone asked me if I would ever go, and I told them, that this time last year, I was thinking about possibly going this year. But.....9 months off, and only having made it to seven classes in the three three months means I'm so not ready for something like the Pan Ams.
Anyway, we got on the maybe next year subject, and I said, hopefully by the time next year rolls around, I'll be a fairly decent white belt.
It made me kind of sad to think in a year from now I may very well still be a white belt, BUT then I thought about it, and I realized I train less in a month what I used to train in a week. So, time wise, I will only get three to four months of time on the mat in an entire year.... in comparison to what I was doing before. I was doing 4-6 days a week, now I am doing 3-4 times a month.
It actually makes me feel better. I'd love to train more, but I am happy with my more balanced life, happier home, and more stable... everything. But breaking it down to actual time on the mat versus actual time passing makes me feel better about my lack of progress in the time that I have been back to Fabio's, because it's really not a lack of progress, it is just less time on the mat.... and I am totally cool with that.
It does not matter how slow I go, as long as I do not stop.