I've been back to Fabio's since last year... as in since just prior to New Years, but I've trained three times.
Three.
I can't go to class tonight. I couldn't grapple last week because of the ring worm. I was sick the week before that. By the time my sorry behind is back on the mats it will be an entire month between the the last two times I've grappled.
It is starting to REALLY bother me.
If I am being completely honest, sometimes I feel like it's not even worth it. I know I'm going to progress at a snails pace as it is, and with my husband hectic schedule I am missing classes left and right.
I know it isn't that big of a deal, and I am just frustrated so I am making it out to be worse than it is, but I already struggle with feeling behind and slow because of the hiatus I took, training once a week makes the feeling of falling behind and never progressing even worse.... (Even though in my head, I KNOW it isn't a race, and there is no falling behind in Jiu-jitsu.) and not being able to train for a month at a time is just compounding that feeling. Heck, I don't think I've grappled two consecutive Monday's in the eight weeks that I have been back. On top of all of that, it doesn't make sense to pay to train, when I can't actually train.
Punch me in the mouth.
I know I am just throwing myself a pity party, and I am sure I will happily run back to class when ever I am actually able to make it there, but as of right now I feel like I need to just put a pin in it until I know I am able to go with any real consistency.
I'm sorry for your frustration.
ReplyDeleteBut for Heaven's sake, *DON'T* do the "If I can't do it 100% and perfect, I'm not doing it at all" thing. My former housemate used to say, "Perfection is the enemy of the good" and he was right.
We love BJJ. If we can only go to ONE CLASS A YEAR, it's still waaaaay worth it!!!!
I have gone through this myself. During most of December and January I couldn't roll due to a sinus/ear infection that just would not go away. It happens to us all. Now I'm back in class and loving it again. Just keep a good attitude and it will work out.
ReplyDeleteIt's okay to be a big cry baby about it, but don't give up. If you really want to do it, it doesn't matter if you can only go once in awhile, that's better than nothing (except for the paying for not training part, maybe you could work out a pay-by-day kind of deal?) Otherwise just take some time off and try to apply my least favorite word..."patience" :)
ReplyDeleteI would feel the same way if I were in your shoes. Actually, I would be a cry baby. I would throw an all out temper tantrum. lol. You know I am hoping you will keep coming even if it is only a few classes a month! But I understand why it is extremely frustrating. HUGS!!
ReplyDeleteI've been knocked back to training one day a week the past month, myself. It sucks, but I know it will get better and I'll be able to train more. That one day a week that we train keeps our foot in the door, and keeps it open until we can train more often. Hugs :)
ReplyDeleteI too have gone through the same ordeal, it seems that injuries are the biggest reason to not train more than anything. keep at it and you'll get better
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