44 days and counting

I will make light weight for the next NAGA.

I'm 5'9 and my training partner is 5'4. At the November NAGA she was easily the biggest girl in her class. ... and I dwarf her. (And I say biggest, but she is tiny.) I was aching to grapple the little twigs she got to fight. lol

I have 44 days to drop 15 pounds. I put on a few pounds over Christmas because I trained less, and had to eat three Christmas dinners. ... And for the love of all that is holy, if you put cheese and crackers out on a tray, I will eat them... all.

Anyway, I lost 8 pounds for De la Riva and it wasn't too hard, and I did that in 16 days.

This time I have to lose a little more, but I have much longer to do it. ... and I will do it.

Rawr!

The only thing I am unsure of is where I should try and maintain. I think I was looking a little bony at 140. I can pretty much eat what I want (except for epic amounts of cheese trays) and stay at 145... but that means I will be going up and down 10 pounds between competitions. But I guess as long as I keep myself healthy while I do it, it shouldn't matter that much.

Maybe between the Feb, and June NAGAs I will just let my body do what it wants and see where I even out. I've never been as low as 135 as an adult and there are no major food holidays between those NAGAs, so maybe I won't get back up to 145... I plan to compete every 3 months provided everything works out. I'm sure I will miss a few. It takes a lot of planning to go away for a weekend when you have two small children.

Hello, my name is Stephanie. I have boobs and I grapple.

Hello Blog.

In the past six weeks I have:

-Competed in NAGA. I totally flopped my gi fight, but in my defense, the girl who ate my face for dinner did win first in both adult and masters gi... and I placed second in no-gi.

-Taken a few private lessons. My school puts white belts with everyone from day one. So, I am able to roll with blue, purple and brown belts (and sometimes black belts) on a regular basis. I love that and I think it has helped me to have a slightly better grappling game then someone who only ever rolls with other crappy white belts, (I learned a lot from "Omg, what did you just do to me." and a lot of my grapples turn in to little 5 minute tutorials.) but some of the fairly basic things get over looked. An hour spent one on one with someone going over the very basics has been so beyond helpful, I can't even begin to explain.

-Injured my wrist. Nothing major, but with the next NAGA in 45 days (Yes, I am counting.) I have been trying hard to help it heal. Thankfully, it is my left wrist, which is my retarded side, and I only ever notice it when I post out on that side, or when I go for gi chokes.

So... to the point of my blog.

I have boobs... I still have them in spite of my best efforts to paste them down to my body when I go to class. …. (And it’s not like I even have big boobs….)

My boobs were an issue when I started Jiujitsu... at least they were for me. I didn't want to put them on anyone, or in anyone’s face. I eventually got over that... but for some reason I am starting to worry about it again... but only when I roll with certain people. I don’t even know why. It’s not like I am attracted to them… I could at least understand that, but no… It’s just a few random guys… and it is REALLY annoying! It has nothing at all to do with their behavior, no one has been inappropriate or anything like that. I just get uncomfortable and weirded out which sends my game straight down the gutter…. and there is nothing I can do about it. It’s even worse when they point out that I am not keeping pressure on them. I just mutter “Oh right”… and cringe as I lower myself on to them. I look like and imbecile… I’ve been grappling for four months. I should know to keep pressure by now. I can’t exactly explain that I was purposefully keeping my chest off of their’s without coming off like a complete and total creep… or making it sound like I think they are the creep. And the last thing I would want to do is ask not to grapple them. I A. do not want to complain, and B. do not want my instructors to get the wrong impression and think they had done something to make me uncomfortable….

And it’s not like I can even feel anything through my two bras, underarmor and gi.

I don’t even know. … but yes, I do feel a little better now that I have talked to myself a little about it. lol